As it turns out once you feel like you have overcome your darkness moments there can be in turn some big hills to climb over before you can achieve normality. Without a doubt the most important thing is to get better and anything is worth getting rid of this illness, however time nor life stands still whilst you are taking the time to recover.
I feel this is the point i am at during my (i suppose you can still call it ) recovery. The other thing is breaking out of habits from what the depression has left. So just because my mind was in a different place I still developed some habits that need breaking. So during my recovery I was consciously not pushing myself at anything in an effort not to tire myself out mentally. And at this moment in time i’m finding it hard to be pro active and push myself into trying hard.