To quote a Vaccines song-
“Ive got too much time on my hands
But you don’t understand
Or you won’t understand
Would I make it right?
Would it make you less uptight?
What would it achieve?”
I doubt that the meaning of the song had anything to do with depression but certain lines seem familiar to it. Someone I knew from school (not well at all and I wont pretend to) hung himself recently. I am unsure of the circumstances or if he was even suffering from depression but reading his friends comment on facebook to quote just one “why mate why, we could have helped” got me screaming at the screen not in anger or frustration but at the possibility that if depression wasn’t such a taboo subject I could perhaps help these people understand what depression is like and more than anything help them with the grievance to come to terms with it. I may be completely wrong but it seems like a lack of understanding could stand in the way of people finding help or confiding in the nearest and dearest about feelings that cant just be solved by “PULLING YOURSELF TOGETHER”.
I am currently trying to come off my medication as there is a few side effects such as lack of motivation which I would like to abolish and feel I am in a good place to be able come off them. Hopefully this path wont be too difficult.