Recent weeks have been the most difficult for me since my recovery this is because it is getting to the point where I need start going again with life, I have been ok?? for 2 months now and feel like I have had my rest and now is the time life should be back to normal.
It has been 7 months since I first realised I was depressed and the life treadmill has been continuously rolling whilst I have been straddling the sides and not moving. This make me feel bad in so many ways the fact that I am not where I should be and I am not able to jump back on the treadmill at the same speed I was going at previously (quite a vivid image if you can picture jumping on and flying off the back of the treadmill). Perhaps this isnt a bad thing this learning to walk before I can run maybe the key to getting on track but it is a scary thought and something I am finding hard to do.
I wish that treadmill woul stop for a chance of full recovery, but I suppose that it doesnt matter at what speed I get back to life, its better than where it was a few months back.